Mountains out of Mole-hills

Ahh I feel better. It was a rough time but it is over. I am happy, yay! I miss Steve, but I must not hound him while he is away. I gotta trust that everything will be perfect, and I know it will be.
I am so excited for school. I wish it was starting,like, next week! I want to get back into that groove again, I love it.
Kate and I are getting an apartment and we get it the whole year (August through May). I plan on taking winter classes through s local community college. And I was trying to take a summer class also, but it doesn't look like that is going to happen. Im just gonna have to see=]
4th of July is tomorrow, it doesn't feel like it though. It just feels another saturday.

Lately I think I have been making mountains out of mole hills; everything is about me. I think perhaps I am making drama. I am not going to do this anymore; it's so stupid! I must want to be noticed or for someone to come save me. Gahh, I am such a girl! I never was like this, however I am getting older and 20-something year old do need to create some sort of lives.

I miss you

Our 6 month anniversary was June 28th. Steve is in Missouri receiving training and fulfilling his dream. He really wants to volunteer and help people, do 'service' as he calls it. I don't know what I would do without him. I love him so much. He is my other half, there is no doubt in my mind and I know he feels the same way.
I miss him so much. We can't talk on the phone or webcam like we have been. I think thats why I am taking it so hard. There are times in the day where I want to drop everything and run to Missouri to him, but I know he wouldn't want that and I can't do that.
I just have to keep my mind pre-occupied with work and find other things to do. I think I will start a blanket for us. A nice, big, green blanket.
In two years, when I'm all done with school, we will be together. Where? I'm not really sure. I know he wants to stay in the city and I want to teach inner city children. We are going to get an apartment, I have so much to look forward to!
I send him e-mails all the time. His official training doesnt begin until July 15th. On that day he is donating his marrow so he will be back in New York in Long Island. I really want desperately to get down there and be with him, he told me it's a 4 hour operation. I want to be there with him so much. I think i'll mention it to him in an e-mail when it gets a little closer.
If I don't get down, I know at least I will be able to talk with him over the phone and webcam, at least for a few days.
I pray for him every night, and ask God to help us through this time of being apart. I know He is providing us with peace. He is teaching me a valuable lesson of 'I can't always get what you want'.